1. 2 years ago 

   put off doing this for a while

   but i’m bored

   Ten apologies to ten different people:
   1. I’m sorry I have hurt you or anything equivalent to it, I never intend to and it kills me.

   2. I’m sorry that I didn’t pay attention to you changing, and now you can’t change back.
   3. I’m sorry I was being so selfish; that I wasn’t by you side.
   4. I’m sorry I’m not someone you’re proud of.
   5. I’m sorry you have to go through with his bullshit.
   6. I’m sorry I wasn’t there that night.
   7. I’m sorry for everything that’s happened to you in life, you don’t deserve it at all.
   8. I’m sorry for letting you down.
   9. I’m sorry that I can’t trust you anymore.
   10. I’m sorry that I don’t consider you family anymore.
   
   Nine confessions to nine different people:
   1. i still don’t tell you everything, and i don’t know why =/
   2. i don’t want you in my life anymore
   3. i put off seeing you
   4. i used to be scared of seeing you cause i didn’t think i could trust myself around you
   5. i still want you in my life, but you’re not the same anymore
   7. i miss you, the old you
   6. i almost killed myself cause of you, smh

   8. i hate that because of you i lost so many people, including you

   9. you piss me off so much
   
   Eight things you wish you could say to eight different people:
   1. get a fucking life, you’re ruining my family and it’s fucking me up
   2. i should kill you for what you did to me and put me through
   3. your selfishness ruined a lot, nice job asshole
   4. you need to man the fuck up, i don’t care if you’re a woman
   5. ever since you left… my family hasn’t been the same. it hurts all of us so much
   6. stop hanging onto false hope, please.
   7. all of you, thanks for being the cause of 4 years of hurt. it was all worth it in the end.
   8. i don’t care about any of you anymore…
   
   Seven different people you miss:
   1. nana
   2. nana
   3. nana
   4. uncle mike
   5. how you used to be
   6. how you used to be
   7. how you used to be

   
   Six different people you would do anything for:
   1. Ashley
   2. Mom
   3. Kira
   4. Jess
   5. 
   6. 
   
   Five things you hope to accomplish before you die:
   1. have my own business
   2. have my family with her
   3. make a song with kid cudi
   4. go everywhere in the world i want to
   5. make my dad proud
   
   Four words to describe your life:
   1. interesting
   2. overwhelming
   3. deserving 
   4. amazing

   
   Three things you want to hold on to forever:
   1. my love
   2. my sanity
   3. the good memories
   
   Two most important things in your life:
   1. family/friends
   2. happiness
   
   One thing you know you want but will never have:
   1. to not just look at the sky and see stars, to actually go into space and be with them

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